Sorry guys.

Dear Earthlings,

Today, I'm here to apologize to every single one of you because I know I had been shutting or what my friends said to me, pushing people out of my life when they are actually trying to help me cope with my problems. Honestly, I find it hard not to push/shut people away after what happened between me and certain friends but hey I'm much more stronger now.

Truth is, I'm getting really sick and tired of people promising me everything. Hearing people promising you a lot of things will make you feel anxious but when they failed to fulfill it, you will feel empty. Have you ever wonder how this type of people cope with their guilt? Hearing "I promise I'll change" is overrated. I used to get that kind of words but did they change? No. We started to grow apart, especially me. But then, I want to apologize to you for not understanding your situation. It's getting hard, you know.

The main reason why I don't let people in is because they will always try to find a possible way to turn you down. When I'm ready to let people in, it's either they ; Backstab me or Leave me when I need them. I used to trust people easily but not anymore. You'll be just like me when people turn you down every single effin time. I may sound or look like I trust you but truth is, I don't. I'm sorry, you can call me two faced bitch but that's just me. You screwed everything, you lose. And I'm here, apologizing to you for trusting you with every single ounce that I have when you're the last person who I should trust. You asked me why I don't tell you everything. The next time you wonder why I don't tell you everything, maybe you should ask yourself the same darn question.

I'm done yapping my mouth here. If you think I'm not sincere, then it's up to you.

These are what I want to say to 18 different people.

- Thanks for being there for me eventhough I called you late at night. You still listened to your love sick friend's words.

- I like you, make a move will ya ?

- I love you so much, stop makin' me confused will you ? You know you're the first to know about everything.

- Thank you so much for listening to every single problem that I have eventhough I know you were having a hard time dealing with yours.

- Ay bebeh, you're my oompa loompa. Lets go boys hunting. Hoes over Bros !

- Sorry, you've turned into someone I hate.

- 10 years of friendship, I cherish every single effin thing. You know I love you eventhough we don't talk much now.

- I'm sorry that our friendship didn't turn up quite well.

- The things that we had was great but I just wish you could stop talking about it to me.

- From emo, to scene to whatever. You're still a poser to me.

- Eventhough we're far apart, you should know that you're always in my heart. I miss you.

- I'm sorry that I ignored you for that cold 3 weeks, it won't ever happen again.

- Thank you so much for being there. You saw how I changed. You saw how hard was it for me to trust people but you never gave up. I love youuuuu.

- I just wish that we were still bestfriends like when we were in primary 6. You don't know how much I missed you.

- I know that you tried your best to become my close friend but I never really gave you any chance. I'm sorry okay.

- Thank you so much for helping me to get 'close' to him eventhough it didn't turn out well, you're still the best !

- You are full of fun but I'm sorry if I confused you in any possible way.

- Frank Iero is still mine !!!!

xxx, Nadira.